Yeah!!! My extra month on blood thinners post-VAP removal is OVER! I am off the Coumadin! No more weekly INR/PT blood tests! I can ditch the Tylenol and get back to my favorite over the counter pain med...IBUPROFEN! No more half a Vicodin for the night time searing pain of my radiation burn. Advil baby, here I come. No more side effects of the Rx pain killers... I feel liberated! And now I am past my two week moratorium on ridding my body of radiation and can now detoxify with abandon. Green drinks, come and get me! Acupuncture,CoQ10, vitamin c, e, ETCETERA! Time to get down to business getting all the junk out of my system that has already worked it's magic.
My hair continues to grow...that funny mini-mohawk is now turning into a fin on top of my head. My energy continues to build. Asking for help has been a big part of this. Having some meals made for me these last few weeks has helped tremendously. Aya coming to my rescue bridging the gap between when I had to leave home and when childcare would arrive was a godsend. So much support from such loving and caring people. How did I get so lucky? How do I accept all of this? I continue to challenge myself and say yes to helpful offers.
I struggle in my efforts to balance the needs of the girls and my own. Tonight Hani wanted me to stay home and not go out to dinner with Jacq. Adam planned a fun night for them and yet she still wanted Jacq and me to stay. I felt guilty leaving, especially as she cried harder. I want to give them everything, but then I will have nothing left of me. I went to dinner...making a point to tell her that next time we will plan a night all together (not like we haven't been having those the whole time Jacq has been visiting!) and do something special. Is this healthy selfish or cold selfish? I struggle with that one sometimes.
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